I was 114 when I married my husband 4 years ago. Most of my life I was 117-130 pds.
I gained 40lbs on birth control after I got married in 2 months. I haven't been able 2 get it off since. I thought it was too much weight .
When I got pregnant with my son I gained 50-80lbs.
For 10 years I worked everyday since high school & was always in shape. I was always in great shape. So after my son I went back 2 the gym. I lost 50-80lbs but it took me a year and a half 3-4 times a week some days walking at night with my husband for 30 minutes and going to the gym for 3-4 days a week.
I lost 15 in 2 months in Nov & December 2008 from riding the stationary bike in my house for 1 hour to 1 1/2 hours 4 days a week & some walking. Plus I quit eating sweets which is my hardest part. I gained 20 back in the past 2 months cause I had to go on steroids for my asthma twice this year. I am trying to lose at least 30-50lbs. I know I can do it just make small goals like 2 lbs a week.
When I was thin men used to check me out. Now that I am overweight no men look at me not even ugly men. This is heart breaking. I don't want to them to check me out, it is just heart breaking to feel unattractive to anyone. It makes you feel like crap about yourself. I am married so it's not like I care, it's just a woman likes to feel attractive. Cause if you are then you know your mate is attracted to you too! I really want my husband to find me sexy!!
Confidence: I have always got every interview I have tried out for. I really think it has everything to do with confidence. If you don't have confidence in yourself then really how can you sell yourself. It applies to friends, jobs, everything. People respect you because you have to love and respect yourself. If you don't take care of yourself and have no discipline then how can you except others to respect you as well?
I notice a huge huge difference in how my everyone treats me overall. My friends, family, strangers. Every treats me a lot worse then when I respected myself. I can't believe the difference. It really makes me mad cause I hope I never treated people bad when I was thin. People at stores treat me like crap now because I don't put on make up every time I go out or do my hair. If I am thin, it doesn't matter if I do those things, people have always treated me good.
I had a ton more friends than I do now. People used to call me and want to do things with me.
I don't care if people don't like me for who I am they aren't worth my time in my precious wonderful life.
When I exercise I have a ton more confidence and feel great about myself and don't mind going out in crowds and in public. Now I am so disgusted with myself I don't want anyone to even see me. I am so embarrassed.
I do it when I first get up no time for excuses plus you lose the weight that is on you instead of the calories u ate that day. A friend taught me that years ago who is in awesome shape !! You will love how hurt it muscles are during the
day!! Cause you know it came all your hard work .
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